I am not sure what I am feeling right now. Whether I am sad, or depressed or unhappy. Yeah, they all pretty much mean the same thing but I won't say that I am depressed. I am just feeling very what I would say 'mleh'. Not sure because its the time of the month or just in general, I have been having a mleh week. So this week is the week before my first test. I have two tests in this module and the first test is already freaking me out. I have like about 30-40 chapters to read and in the study guide we were given had like over 200 questions. It being so much information already scares me enough. Plus, this is the first 'examination' some sort that I would be sitting under the American Education. I don't know how is it going to be like. I was used to how exams are like back in Malaysia but here, I have no clue. Besides that, this is graduate level education which should be more difficult.
So this week, I have created schedule after schedule to study because I can never seem to finish whatever I schedule to finish and it makes me sad because my brain would get to a point that it's too lazy to memorise or read anymore. So yeah, I am worried. But a good thing is that I have done my part of the group project, leaving just the presentation slides and references to be done, which I would get it done after my test on Tuesday. Planning to catch a movie or something on Wednesday after my test to make myself feel better. Anyways, yeah. I would try to update more often, but I always feel guilty of doing other things because it means I am not studying.
Yeoh Eening
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